This happened to me.
These last few weeks have been a roller coaster ride for me. Basically, I have been experiencing so many different emotions. I have realized something though. About my trials. I realized that it is 100 percent up to me, how I decide to let things affect me. I used to think to myself, fairly regularly... "no one should ever have to go through something like that". Those word have run through my mind for years, as I watch people experience heart breaking trials, or as I go through rough patches myself. Although we may not have done anything to deserve the trials we face, we accepted each and every one of them before we came to this earth. We wouldn't have accepted them if we weren't certain we could concur them. As I have struggled to overcome different obstacles in my life, I was so focused on myself and why I would have to face something so terrible that I failed to do the one thing that would release the the pain and the anger. As things began to resurface, and feelings of grief began to creep in and take over my entire body. To the point where I wasn't even sure what I was feeling anymore. I didn't feel like me. Something else had taken over. It was dark, and so terribly overpowering. Unable to comprehend these feelings I asked my Heavenly Father for help. Begging him to take away the hurt I could feel so strongly. I could literally feel my Savior there. I could feel him waiting for me. Waiting for me to let him embrace me. All I had to do was walk into his arms. He has already suffered my sins and the sins of others. Not only that, but he has felt every sorrow and every pain. He really knows my heart. I could not be more grateful for the Lord's hand in my life. I can not imagine having to face this world without the knowledge of the gospel. I would be a fool to think I could possibly face this life on my own. To my Savior, I will be forever indebted to. Forever grateful. And forever loving of him. He is there, I know, because I can feel him.
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